I had a falling out with a friend a couple of years ago. I was angry at first. I never break up with friends, this was pretty new. And then I got past the anger enough to see some stuff about myself I needed to work on. I ended up feeling OK about her. When she came to mind I simply wished her well.

She emailed me out of the blue a while back. We both like to write a good email, so we kept a thread going for a bit, back and forth. We got caught up. We made each other laugh and we touched base on things about each other that not many people really know.

It was quiet for a bit and then we just sent a couple emails again. It feels really good. There are no expectations, but there’s familiarity there. It’s like putting on your old favourite shoes and walking around the room. I need to have more definitions of friend. I hold my friends so close and expect so much. I’m as faithful and loyal as an old pooch. But I need to allow people other options for being in my life and I think I’m getting there. It’s pretty freeing.