Tue 3 Apr 2007
Lovable Control Freaks like myself are better off if there’s something we can *do*. Here are some ways I’ve learned to manage it for myself:
The Committed Version
1. Try every a.m. to sit in a private quiet spot. Repeat to yourself stuff like “I let go of this” or “I release this” or whatever makes sense to you. Sometimes I even make a gesture of pushing it away from me with my hands. You feel like a dork, but the physical gesture, I find, helps to make it real. Or do your favourite yoga breath and visualizing yourself exhaling “it” out.
2. Try to be clear that it’s our big fat ego that wants to hold onto stuff. “This is Who I Am” or we’re attached to “Our Story” or we’ve decided this makes us look good. Seeing this drama for what it is, is the best way to start giving it up. You’re more than any story or drama your ego cooks up. Look for a new, more authentic, story.
2. Let it go with compassion. Our resistance usually takes the shape of anger or bitterness, or we feel we’ve been wronged etc. Your mission is to get to the place where you can say “I let it go and wish this person all the best” or “I release this person and hope they find x and y”. When you can get there and mean it, you’re finished your journey.
The Quickie
There’s a short version of this too. Don’t you find that if something bugs you your mind keeps coming back to it? Instead of allowing this crazy-making, notice it and interject every time with “nope, I’m letting go of this”. You’ll probably have plenty of opportunity to find more creative comebacks for your thought.
The Effects
As you’re doing these techniques try to notice the effects. Notice any changes in your body. Do you feel a load-off the shoulders? Is your belly any softer? Holding less grudge in your heart? Use indications like this to help keep you going.
You’ll be an expert next time Life hands you something to let go of.
April 3rd, 2007 at 11:24 pm
Wow, Corilee, I realy appreciate these last two posts! I have had to let go of so much lately, what with losing my dad and all. Not just let go of him as a person, but let go of the feelings he gave me, the feelings I had for him, etc. Not that I let go of the love but just to use it in a different way now, transform it somehow…
And I think that goes with your no. 2- let go of whatever it is with compassion. I know that’s a hard one for me… I really have to keep talking to myself. I find I still have a lot of feelings of anger, remorse, etc. about my dad’s last months but really, my dad’s not holding onto any of it, so why should I?
Thanks, Corilee- you made my day…
xo
April 6th, 2007 at 1:20 am
Hi,
That is a great piece you wrote indeed.I repeat things/words to myself all of the time. At first I did feel like a dork. But eventually you do get use to it. When my father passed, I had to let go. I knew that this would have put me at peace and him as well. And I feel so good about that decision and I know his spirit is at peace as well.